There once was girl
who fell in love with a boy. She loved him so much it made her dizzy and hurt her chest. The best part about this boy was that he loved her back, in the very same way. The worst part about this boy was that he was terrified. So despite how much he loved the girl, after 4 months, he hit the panic button and was gone as quickly as he had appeared. The girl was never the same again.
The girl spent the next 2 years trying to get over this boy. She did everything she possibly could to forget. She met a lot of new boys, but none ever compared, and she quickly lost interest in each one, and one by one she tossed them aside. Boys were merely a plaything now, something to help her pass the time. She acted like it was just what she did, but she knew that she had never been this way, and she was secretely afraid that she would never be able to feel love again.
The first boy slowly began to fade from her memory. But one day, a year after he left, he came back. Just for a day, before he was gone again, and her heart was broken all over again. She knew she couldn’t spend her days being sad over this boy anymore. So she picked out a new boy, and she kissed him and made him hers.
The new boy was a nice boy. He treated her well and did whatever he could for her. She knew she was lucky to have such a nice boy, but she also knew that she would never be able to love him like she loved the first boy. After not even a year, the new boy and her called it quits. They had spent a lovely time together, but they knew it was time to move on. And so they did, and she never saw that boy again.
And so she went back to her ways, meeting boys and getting bored, but she hoped one day one would stick. None of them did. And she was convinced she was broken, never to feel anything again.
And then one night she met another boy. They became friends. One night the boy did a very silly thing. The boy kissed the girl. And she kissed him back. The girl was uncertain on the way she felt about this boy. But they slowly became better friends and when they would see each other, they would kiss some more. And since the girl knew how she was and how she behaved, she thought nothing of it, and warned the boy, thinking she would just get bored again one day.
So the girl’s friendship with this boy continued to grow, and they continued to kiss, and she waited and waited for the day to come when she was finally bored. But before that day came, the boy stopped kissing the girl, but their friendship continued to grow. And one night the girl looked at the boy and she suddenly knew that the day she got bored would not come. Instead came the day she thought would never come again, and the girl was in love with this boy.
The best part about this boy was that he made her dizzy and made her chest hurt. The worst part about this boy was that he could not love her back. And she knew that.
So the girl didn’t tell the boy she loved him. Instead, she kept quiet for months and looked the other way when he would kiss other girls and pretended it didn’t bother her while their friendship kept going. Then one night the boy kissed her again. And she kissed him back. And although she kissed him because she loved him, she knew he only kissed her because he thought she was pretty.
And she knew that that was how it was always going to be.
There is no happy ending to this story. The girl still loves the boy and the boy still cannot love her back. The only good thing about this story is that the girl now knows that she is not broken and that she can feel love, even if it’s painful everyday.
